My New Year Resolution

To do well in school really means allot to me because I know that what I do now is what my future will be. I want to be able to depend upon myself and not on my parents when I am old. I also want my parents to see that I am a child that they've done a good job on raising, which made me what I am today. I know that sometimes I procasinate my homework or studies but I'll try to maintain myself better in the present future. I'm also been afraid many times that I won't be able to do well in school or even college when I get there. I'm afraid that I will fail once more. It is said from everywhere and very often that you should never give up, but to me, sometimes when I fall, I just want to hide away from feeling others disappointment. It makes me feel like a big failure. I hope that I will be able to stand tall in the future.

I realize that in the past I have't really have a close friendship with some of my friends I've always hung out with when I was younger. I see that last year has really even pull us apart from one another. Some of my friends have just become uninterested, as I see it, from being with their friends. I do have a really good friend that I truly like to be with alot. She's really honest about her life to me. We talk alot when we meet, which isn't often. I see that our friendship, including with my other friends, isn't growing but getting less unimportant because we nearly never have a daily meeting schedule. It's kind of hard, too, because most of my friends' parents practically holds them tight by a leash because, as they'd say, were girls and not boys, so we can't go hardly anywhere. I find that kind of nonsense but alot of girls are vulnerable and can't protect themselves. But, I do hope to have a daily date with those that I can if not with those that I cannot.

I know that I do have bad qualities. To really admit, I have more bad qualities than I do good. I guess many of us do too, but it's hard for us to admit that we are alot of the times. These bad qualities can be procasinating, lying, calling people names, covering up for someone else or doing what you're not suppose to. All of these may seem small but they can lead you somewher; a place that you wonąt understand. even do the little stuff, though it's really hard not to do. There are even more horrible qualities in a person than these. You know what they are because they are in the news everyday.

I really do count myself being lucky to be born into a Christian family. Though, as a child, I may not have truly understand God, I'm introduced into God. I may not have taken God seriously in the past or even now, but I'm becoming aware of God. It's just not too short awhile that I'm starting to notice the things people say and do that use to seem minor to me. It's still very hard for me to go by in life but now I'm starting have faith that God will never forsake me. I'm starting to have faith that I can go through life, even if I fail or lose someone because nothing is ever beyond God. There are many who may oppose me for what I am but the truth does have to come out one way or another. I hope that God will encourage me through someone else to be to active, good, giving, worship him endless and many more.