Last night and this morning I actually had a sense of dread about going to school on Monday. I've had this same dread-of-being-unprepared before in other jobs, so I had been excited that I hadn't yet felt it. I guess even this perfect-for-me job isn't immune. The good news is that there was so much going on during the day that I didn't have time to dwell on it, and before I knew it I'd taught for 5 hours and then given 6 violin lessons and then written an HTML and a Java assignment while cooking dinner and...now I'm tired but feeling good. The moment of dread was pushed aside and never returned. Whew.
An added bonus of this high school teaching job (besides making me way too tired and busy to stress out about stupid things like "where did those extra 10 pounds come from?") is that it's making me such a better violin teacher. It's so much easier for me to keep the lesson flowing now. And I worry less about what the student/parent is thinking of me and just go for what I think is important. The payoff is that my violin students seem to be happy about playing and coming for lessons, and their technique is looking really good. How cool!
And the improvement in violin teaching means I have more students which means I teach on more days of the week now which means that I keep my house cleaner which makes me more productive and less stressed, and...oooh, everything is soooooo cosmically connected heeyah. Wicked good.